I went home this weekend. I should be working on my art final... I have a lot of things to finish...
On Saturday, saw a play performed at Hartford University with my family. The actors were really incredible, though the play itself was really awful. Before-hand I'd gone out and done some of my last shopping for abroad... still looking for things to send certain people. Haven't yet finished everything...
Went to Marshalls and found something so startlingly lovely that I wasn't sure what it was doing there. A music box, but also an imitation Faberge egg - diamond studded, and red with gold roses - which plays the first few notes of Eine Kleine Nachtmusik. In Amadeus, Salieri uses an exert from this piece to demonstrate to the visiting Priest the gift of Mozart's enduring ability.
There are twenty days before Christmas (and nineteen until Alex's nineteenth..). Who else is freaked at how fast time has flown??
I have an exam at 11:00am in Geography for which I have not studied, and as of yet have no desire to consider... My Stepmother was almost aggressive in her insistence that I revise and get a good grade: thus, where I began dubious of my success, I finish determined in my failure. Very clearly I am cutting off my own nose... but I've never been that fond of my face anyway. So I stomped back into my room and divided the time between catching up with Constanze and sleeping. Tomorrow is Art, which means some time (an hour at least) must today be devoted to sketching the outside of a building. It will be cold, but I own cheap gloves and a scarf, so I think I can manage it.
Erin is gone. I returned to find out fridge still on; her CD player (which I have been using since mine finally died) in place; a small present left on my mattress. But her weekend bag is missing and her book-bag is empty. I suspect she's commuting for the exams. It irks me because now my gift to her will be late... unless I can somehow catch her working.
My exams finish at about 2:00pm on Wednesday, and I have to be out of the dorm 12 hours afterwards. Damn holidays... Nicola Ryder was right. I am a humbug. Just goes to show what we can't acknowledge about ourselves when we're twelve and getting a first crush on a friend's brother. Tsk.
Hmm... Other things that require consideration? I finally gave in to impulse and bought methusa some gifts to send to London as she hasn't been very good about telling me what she wants (we have been through this before, and I know better then to ignore the experience). It is addressed directly to the house and not Garmer, who also receives her gifts separate to Bernar (whose I address to Hartington Street, right?)
I'm starting to dislike Anime on account of all the crazy anime fans I keep encountering. Why are they so frequently lame??
I think it's fair to say that - at the moment - I am desperately frustrated, tired and lonely. And yet I don't really want company. I just need some back-ground noise to remind me that I'm not the only person on earth, a few painkillers and possibly more sleep. But that will have to wait until Wednesday. For now I'm hanging on to every precious moment I can squeeze out of CCSU, sleep-deprivation or no. There are some things more important to me then exams, and maintaining a grip on reality is one of them.
EDIT: Just failed Geog. Woooooo (go me)!!
EDIT 2: Erin is not gone... she just went home for the weekend as I did, and left my present as she wanted me to open it as soon as I saw it. There is still time... But I won't. I don't want Santa to put me over his knee...